I dream of rainbows, of moments sinking golden
Into the welcoming earth, of memories worth holding,
I want a voice that transcends darkness, a voice that
Illuminates. I never asked why I should suffer I truly
Believed that like Atlas I could endure this world if to
Save, if I could bring solace to your rage then perhaps
I did have purpose. I was a ghost, unseen, beyond the
Reach of the trinity. This demon seed that you have sewn
In the graves of your incarnations, you who never were,
Parents that never were, I grow, a bramble, no flowers
To adorn, only the thorns of a crippling defense. All I ever
Wanted was to be heard and with this deafening pen I will
Be known, if the truth despairs, it is because all that you
Have shown, all that you have taught is unworthy of my
Name but if my words should have wings, to set free
Another enslaved then I will strip myself feather by feather
That no one should remain buried in flightless isolation.
These humble poems fall from me shattered on collision
What do I know of courage, these poor heart-shaped lungs
Labor independently, I just want to be pure, translucent
To float unimpeded by the gravity of these inherited sins
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When I was a kid I was raised Christian kind of, my parents sent me to a church they did not attend (they didn’t attend church). I went to church alone and my parents never spoke about church or anything religious so I am not sure how that classifies. The people at the church were very kind to me and they fed me extra and had winter clothes sent to my house. My beliefs now are more Eastern philosophical