I am not a solitary flame,
a candle shivering demurely in a sedate
but nevertheless captivating darkness.
I am a wildfire that chews up
continents and constellations
without so much as a breath between.
I am the kind of fire
that turns everything
around it black.
–
My whole life
I have been a warrior,
charnel ground,
a crumbling tower of a person.
The kind of person
that consumes oceans
and hearts and stars
for the sake
of its own continuance.
–
Numbness is a lack of space,
a crowding together
of emotions and thoughts
which have yet to reach
the stillness of being.
–
You can’t squeeze an entire universe
into a poem, a suitcase, or even a body.
Emotions have no language,
no barriers, no bones of any kind.
–
My loneliness is so vast
and so obliterating
that I can’t even find
myself inside of it.
–
I am struggling a lot right now with abandonment issues and dysregulation so my emotions and thoughts are a bit all over the place.
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