I wait for you
as if it were myself
that were absent.
It is strange
how a body
filled with blood and air
and countless,
infinitesimally small lifeforms
can feel so empty.
–
Every moment can be
traced back to you,
especially those moments
which have not taken place.
I wanted you to be there
spilling past my margins
like sunlight through a window.
–
In the presence
of ecstatic couples
I think of how it might feel
to connect heart to heart
with another human being
and it haunts me.
–
Given the right angle
and the right intention
I feel certain
that our bodies
could become singular.
But the stars never overlap
and it seems
that I am meant
to occupy my own
solitary space indefinitely.
–
If ever my light
should touch you
I hope that you
will think of me
and remember as I do
all the things
that never happened.
mindlovemisery 