My hips are a guillotine
cleaving satin with each giddy stroke.
Limbs akimbo, I ground myself to a pulp.
I just want to feel until I am raw and broken.
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In my mouth love is dangerous,
a lotus redder then any sunset.
I gorge myself on belief
and in belief the genius of union
gives way to the marginally absurd.
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My heart is a fusillade,
the blooms of my bloodline
crackle and blacken.
Will you force
my memories in place
when they wonder off course?
mindlovemisery 
wow! intense!
Thanks!
This reminds me of a raw nightmare.
Perhaps as MNL state it is because of the intensity.
I think though that we can often be way to hard on judging ourselves.