A hush falls over my malingering bones
Between the sheets and the aftermath,
Clumsiness rears it’s unsightly head.
Down is the only direction that I have
Ever known, there is no escaping
Falls taken in the name of allegiance.
Good girls never abandon their lessons.
How I long to be courageous,
Independent and idealistic.
Justice has little to do with the trials of men.
Know that I never stopped struggling,
Love was the source of all
My apologies and in the end there is
Nothing more or less than
Our own willingness to live.
Passion has carried me through the
Quick and the quintessential.
Resolve is everything in world that
Suspects everyone, in a world
That screams out for genius but
Understands nothing of ipseity.
Virtue is for those who haven’t become jaded
Whatever the circumstances spent to dissuade them.
Xenolithic, I droop by the water’s edge
Yearning for a friend who understands.
Zero is the only cipher deep enough to contain me.
It was tough going from A-Z and simultaneously trying to incorporate this awesome song!!! On another note I have 5 tests this week. I am taking the National Prov. If I pass I will complete SFI (Swedish for immigrants). I am extremely nervous. If I pass this will be a major accomplishment for me personally as I started it many years ago but left because of physical and mental illness. If I do not pass I will continue on until December and try again. I had my spoken interview today. It did not go as well as I hoped. SFI is the first program, it has 4 levels. After SFI there is SVA. SVA has majors so to speak. I am not sure which majors are available, certainly not all, but it is far more intensive.