A hush falls over my malingering bones
Between the sheets and the aftermath,
Clumsiness rears it’s unsightly head.
Down is the only direction that I have
Ever known, there is no escaping
Falls taken in the name of allegiance.
Good girls never abandon their lessons.
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How I long to be courageous,
Independent and idealistic.
Justice has little to do with the trials of men.
Know that I never stopped struggling,
Love was the source of all
My apologies and in the end there is
Nothing more or less than
Our own willingness to live.
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Passion has carried me through the
Quick and the quintessential.
Resolve is everything in world that
Suspects everyone, in a world
That screams out for genius but
Understands nothing of ipseity.
Virtue is for those who haven’t become jaded
Whatever the circumstances spent to dissuade them.
Xenolithic, I droop by the water’s edge
Yearning for a friend who understands.
Zero is the only cipher deep enough to contain me.
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It was tough going from A-Z and simultaneously trying to incorporate this awesome song!!! On another note I have 5 tests this week. I am taking the National Prov. If I pass I will complete SFI (Swedish for immigrants). I am extremely nervous. If I pass this will be a major accomplishment for me personally as I started it many years ago but left because of physical and mental illness. If I do not pass I will continue on until December and try again. I had my spoken interview today. It did not go as well as I hoped. SFI is the first program, it has 4 levels. After SFI there is SVA. SVA has majors so to speak. I am not sure which majors are available, certainly not all, but it is far more intensive.
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