Ray Caesar
I am the slick void
Of an unsought retreat
My lips form a horizon
The red litmus
Of a fractured sun stalling
Clouds bate with honey
And hold in tempest
*
I speak of the spirit only
For my flesh
Is mystically detached
My roots prey
In black water
Unseen and unsound
*
Truth lies adjacent
To humiliation
As soon as I stand upright
The ground splits beneath
Am I strong enough to face
Perpetual uncertainty?
*
There are too many pauses
In my composition
Quantum physics has made
Everything possible
And simultaneously indefinite
Today I am a hunchback
Tomorrow I’ll be a swan
Hope is always grandiose
*
Anyone who read yesterday’s post at Curious Flowers is aware that I have been diagnosed with PNES most likely related to some form of dissociative disorder. I still have to be evaluated for a dissociative disorder but it seems quite likely. I just received a response from my mom which was very sweet. A quote from her email “I look at you and see what I would like to be” I don’t think she means the PNES part of course.
mindlovemisery 
That IS a very sweet thing for your Mum to write.
I thought so too =)
I loved the last verse especially – today a hunchback..tomorrow a swan and awwww for your mum 🙂
My posture literally makes other people hurt it is horrible I could become a hunchback if I don’t straiten up. =)
Ok missy, get that ruler out! 🙂
haha
Wonderful poem as always…are any of us strong enough to withstand perpetual uncertainty, and yet, what choice do we really have? Very deep. :). 🙂
We don’t have a choice really. Uncertainty can be pleasant and refreshing but it can also suck lol
Beautiful writing, and am glad for the sweet words of support!
Thanks Ororiel =)
Yeah, really great.
Loved:
“clouds bate with honey
“unseen and unsound
The latter for it’s wordplay
Thank you very much =)
seriously some great lines in this…
The red litmus
Of a fractured sun stalling
Clouds bate with honey
And hold in tempest
ha, great imagery, but emotive too…and the whole speaking in spirit because of the flesh section that comes next….
i was just talking to another blogger about DID yesterday….
What were you saying? Thanks so much I am so glad you enjoyed it Brian