Swan

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Ray Caesar

I am the slick void

Of an unsought retreat

My lips form a horizon

The red litmus

Of a fractured sun stalling

Clouds bate with honey

And hold in tempest

*

I speak of the spirit only

For my flesh

Is mystically detached

My roots prey

In black water

Unseen and unsound

*

Truth lies adjacent

To humiliation

As soon as I stand upright

The ground splits beneath

Am I strong enough to face

Perpetual uncertainty?

*

There are too many pauses

In my composition

Quantum physics has made

Everything possible

And simultaneously indefinite

Today I am a hunchback

Tomorrow I’ll be a swan

Hope is always grandiose

*

Anyone who read yesterday’s post at Curious Flowers is aware that I have been diagnosed with PNES most likely related to some form of dissociative disorder. I still have to be evaluated for a dissociative disorder but it seems quite likely. I just received a response from my mom which was very sweet. A quote from her email “I look at you and see what I would like to be” I don’t think she means the PNES part of course.

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14 responses to “Swan

  1. seriously some great lines in this…
    The red litmus
    Of a fractured sun stalling
    Clouds bate with honey
    And hold in tempest

    ha, great imagery, but emotive too…and the whole speaking in spirit because of the flesh section that comes next….

    i was just talking to another blogger about DID yesterday….

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