My latest submission for Carbon Noise Poetry can be found here
Swan
Ray Caesar
I am the slick void
Of an unsought retreat
My lips form a horizon
The red litmus
Of a fractured sun stalling
Clouds bate with honey
And hold in tempest
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I speak of the spirit only
For my flesh
Is mystically detached
My roots prey
In black water
Unseen and unsound
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Truth lies adjacent
To humiliation
As soon as I stand upright
The ground splits beneath
Am I strong enough to face
Perpetual uncertainty?
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There are too many pauses
In my composition
Quantum physics has made
Everything possible
And simultaneously indefinite
Today I am a hunchback
Tomorrow I’ll be a swan
Hope is always grandiose
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Anyone who read yesterday’s post at Curious Flowers is aware that I have been diagnosed with PNES most likely related to some form of dissociative disorder. I still have to be evaluated for a dissociative disorder but it seems quite likely. I just received a response from my mom which was very sweet. A quote from her email “I look at you and see what I would like to be” I don’t think she means the PNES part of course.
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