Torment

Raffaello Ossola 1954 - Swiss painter - Tutt'Art@ (20)Raffaello Ossola

I wish for heaven to reclaim my vision

For this nullifying darkness to end

Must I hold my flaws above my gifts

Lest I forget, for a moment, to be humble

Must I cling to granite and graphite

The poverty of genius is it a myth?

Can I write the way I smile

With every scintilla of my being

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Must I eat only of embittered flesh

To be truly fearless

Happiness scares me the way it elevates

All that is within me buried

Can I write deeply from a greater height?

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Is it thoughtless not to remake

When to breathe is so unbearable?

Is it okay to say I accept

When it is I who am mistaken?

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Between one extreme and another

I slide quicksilver into a migrant cloud

There is no hero more progressive than sincerity

I am afraid of the lightening for it is

So unlike me to burn with a white light

So unlike me to stretch skeletal wings

In defiance of a prejudicial tempest

To say that I could means so much less than

I have done because I will not recede

In the face of my limitations

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Am I too hard on myself

Or do I eschew the legacy of being?

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I wrote a discussion piece on Curious Flowers that kind of goes along with this poem. I am little confused today I am just not able to get a decent night’s sleep. Sam said I saw him last night and became really startled like I didn’t recognize him I don’t remember it though

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22 responses to “Torment

  1. There is so much pain…can I write deeply from a greater height? What a question you have asked of yourself, as if through lack of sleep and inner torment you are watching yourself from above. Hope you sleep… I’m going through that now it’s 2am… Take care you x

  2. “I wish for heaven to reclaim my vision

    For this nullifying darkness to end

    Must I hold my flaws above my gifts

    Lest I forget, for a moment, to be humble”

    “Between one extreme and another

    I slide quicksilver into a migrant cloud”

    🙂

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