I was not prepared to exonerate praise
I am subcutaneous, an indelible will
That feasts on skeleton keys
And condemnation
I do not know how to be loved
Much less distinguished
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My lips deny the passage
Of stereotypes but sincerity
Is impossible to exclude
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Curious but oft nullified
By an aversion to ceremony
I am gripped by your candor
But the epithet does not integrate
With my own diminished esteem
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For many, including myself, praise can difficult to reconcile with self perception. I sometimes find myself completely bewildered by compliments. I’ve even looked around the room when someone is being complimentary in order to locate the subject! On an entirely different note my vertigo had subsided to a nice generic dizziness but this morning it returned full force.