July 26, 2013 – mindlovemisery

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-26hsZqwveA

In my junior year of high school I decided to go on the senior class trip to Washington D.C. I didn’t actually know that many seniors but I would have jumped on any excuse to travel/get away from home. The social aspects didn’t bother me, I wasn’t even worried about being social. I figured better that no one know me as there is less chance of me getting pulled into anything. I know, I know where was my sense of rebellion? Of romance? As I was signing up for the field-trip the senior that I had a crush on walked into the room and sat behind me. We didn’t know each other really. We didn’t have classes together and I was too shy to chat with him when I saw him in the mornings. I thought he was cute with his over-sized Joker Hats, hacky sac, and the whole skateboarder get up. I did once get the nerve to approach him on Valentine’s Day I ran up to him and gave him an envelop with a very weird piece of Scandinavian jewelry. I didn’t really intend for it to be worn, it was more this is something I love, I am giving it to you. Anyways I ran off before we could talk to me. That was probably about 1 year before this trip so I figured he’s forgotten all about it. I don’t have to be embarrassed about my lameness anymore lol On the bus they were playing this song and everyone was singing along and even though I wasn’t talking to anyone I felt a part of the group somehow (it’s that weird delusional thing that happens when you get too weird and antisocial I think lol).

When we got to the hotel I got into a pair sweats and a t-shirt right away because I was not going to talk to anyone you know. I was going to watch TV and then go to sleep. I had 2 female roommates by the way. At some point my crush appears in my bedroom with me looking like hell (I think I may have had a cat shirt on or something) and I am thinking geezus but I am happy too. He just wanted our coffee pot. Anyways later that night my roommates attempt to lure me to a party with the prospect of pot but I don’t care about that sort of thing so I declined (I wasn’t goody-two-shoes I always just did my own thing you know? Thankfully I never smoked pot while it is helpful for many conditions it is really not good for Epilepsy!). Turns out my crush is in the room beside me so all night I hear him and his roommates goofing around.

The next day the field-trip officially begins and lo and behold my crush comes up and starts talking to me. I was really surprised! He is adorable, more adorable than I imagined. When we take a group photo he is told to stand in the back because of his height but he stays beside me anyways so we will have a picture together. He talks to me a good portion of the trip. He tells me his phone number, his address, his work address, where he is going to college, I mean everything I could need to contact/locate him. Asks me to visit. For some reason I gave him no info at all and I was unlisted and lived in the boonies. He also brings up the necklace which he apparently has on his nightstand. He remembered that? I was happy but then I found out he had a girlfriend (he tells me himself but it doesn’t seem things are going too well). Still I didn’t want to be that girl, I didn’t want to hurt someone. On the way home we stop at a gas station and I go to the bathroom when I get out he is there all puppy eyes “I missed you” he wasn’t making it easy. When we finally got back to the school I left without saying anything in part because my mom was in a big damn hurry, in part because he had a girlfriend so what could I do? He graduated and that was seemingly that. At some point 2 years later I think I met someone who knew him (who I didn’t know but mysteriously knew me, she was his ex so she explained) and she told me where he worked and suggested I go see him (she also told me about their relationship from the past) but I was married at that point so I did not go see him. Honestly, I am not even sure what I said in response to this conversation I was so gobsmacked I mean it is not every day or ever (you would think) that this type of conversation occurs lol So that is my tale for you kiddies =)