I want to bury myself inside of you

Inside the polyurethane chambers of

Your heart, the acquired shell of a

Salt-fearing mollusk, your love

Reinforces me, galvanizes my

Mindstates, I want to know the

Truth of your being, to press my

Untasted smile to your surrendering

Mouth, to assemble your syllables

Into a life raft underneath my tongue

So that I may speakĀ  only of art


You desire me despite the absences that

Withdraw, despite the decay muting my

Bones, I am silent but for the shudder of

Your breath, you who are my language, my

Alchemy, my reason for earthly habitation

Despite my martian ideologies, I am

Beautiful because you have held me and

Rendered me so, that is your virtuosity


(Eeeep I tried to write something romantic, there is probably a law against that somewhere lol)



Day 26 “A Song For The Present Mindstate”


“Every single night
I endure the flight
Of little wings of white-flamed
Butterflies in my brain
These ideas of mine
Percolate the mind
Trickle down the spine
Swarm the belly, swelling to a blaze
That’s when the pain comes in
Like a second skeleton
Trying to fit beneath the skin
I can’t fit the feelings in, oh
Every single night’s a light with my brain…

What’d I say to her
Why’d I say it to her
What does she think of me
That i’m not what I ought to be
That i’m what I turned out to be
It’s got to be somebody else’s fault
I can’t get caught
If what I am is what I am, cause I does what I does
Then brother, get back, cause my breast’s gonna bust open
The rib is the shell and the heart is the yolk yolk
And I just made a meal for us both to choke on
Every single night’s a fight with my brain…

I just wanna feel everything
I just wanna feel everything
I just wanna feel everything

So i’m gonna try to be still now
Gonna renounce the mill a little while and
If we had a double-king-sized bed
We could move in it and i’d soon forget
That what I am is what I am cause I does what I does
And maybe i’d relax, let my breast just bust open
My heart’s made of parts of all that surround me
And that’s why the devil just can’t get around me
Every single night’s a light, every single night’s a fight
And every single fight’s alright with my brain…

I just wanna feel everything
I just wanna feel everything
I just wanna feel everything
I just wanna feel everything”