Old classroom

Your neck is like a mandolin string

Poised with willful concavity. Beneath

Your notice, I suffer, not even the

Company of your disdain, omitted

Perhaps by shear proximity as your

Eyes never settle below the stars


In time, my mercurial heart will misplace

These moments, which now seem so imminent,

And this half love that rages through neglect

Will for lack of breath dwindle, as our youth

To will submit, to the implacable metronome


One day, when you are carefully sequestered  in

Yearbook superlatives, I will point you out

Casually, without euphemising affection

Or straying bitterness, as someone, who in

Truth I never really knew but with whom

Proximity forced me superficially acquainted


(This is fictional but the type of fiction for which I think some of us can relate. At least I have had unrequited crushes and looking back years later I realize that I didn’t really know the person anymore than they did me. I want to update everyone on the health situation the last two days I was in intense physical pain  I found no relief with medication for either my pain or fever. I finally went to the emergency room yesterday and I was there most of the day hence I wasn’t responding. They did a battery of tests I had 4 vials and 4 bottles of blood drawn, a lung x-ray, and they did something truly awful to my nose that I don’t want to speak about haha I have a very hard time giving blood so I can’t donate even and they really really struggled to get the blood so I am positively covered in needle holes they had to give up on the IV even though I needed it. My resting pulse right now is 155 (usually 55), my blood pressure is 148/90 (usually 100/60) I have had a fever for days still do actually. As you know I went to the doctor a few days ago I waited a long time to go and they wrote me off as having a virus whatever is going around but turns out that I have a bacterial infection that is attacking my lungs and joints and its been running rampant in my body for 10 days or so but because I have been sick so much this year I guess I was really weak. Anyways I now have antibiotics! They suggested I stay at the hospital but I just can’t stand the hospital so I am home. I took one of my pills so far I am really nauseous and right now just more miserable than I have ever felt. In a few days I might find out what the infection is. I will try to write and comment but if I do disappear you know its because I am sick)