He fell from the rafters,
Like a noose
Death’s own emissary
His throat swollen shut
Face blue with concealment
Each movement perilous
Until finally he ground himself
Into complete stasis
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He wears despair
In smudges of charcoal
In the hollow above
His cheekbones
Insomniac eyes
That dream without
The aid of sleep
This animated corpse
Stands in places
You once stood
He wears your face
Cleverly, like a tipped fedora
But he’s got the eyes of a dying fish
Vacuous and filled with bug-eyed panic
Windows, these grim eyes
Sometimes I see his heart
Collapsing behind them
Like decomposing fruit
His mind is a limestone quarry
I see his residue
In the cracks on the floorboards
Like the painted face of a Geisha
Moon pale and beautiful
Brilliant spirit, crumbling
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Barely breathing, this suicide
Assumes a requiem of its own
In the haunting patterns
Of your clarion heartbeat
Steadily I’m hammered down
Into a wafer-thin imitations of myself
Together I keep us both pressed
Between the pages of my notebook
Bloody Rorschach impressions
We’ve become virtually indistiguishable
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some of you know my husband is severely Depressed and this is about living with him
mindlovemisery 
You paint such vivid pictures with your words. The more I read the more I was drawn in. This is a beautiful piece of work.
Awww thank you and thank you for the like too =)
I hope your dedication will be as successful as your words are..an amazing portrait that you’ve shown here..I pray for blessings…
Thank you so much Lyn. I hope so I am, if nothing else unbelievably stubborn and I won’t give up on him even if he has
This is a pretty good portrayal of what depression is like. Depression is proven to be contagious, so I hope you are able to get counseling when you need it.
Right now he’s receiving counseling and is heavily medicated but doesn’t seem to be working really not yet anyways
“He wears despair
In smudges of charcoal
In the hollow above
His cheekbones” I enjoyed these lines the best, niceeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee 🙂
Thank you so much!
very good. very very good. I can feel it. very nice.
Thank you Jesse and thanks for the like =)
an evocative, raw and stunning poem about being depressed and living with someone who’s depressed. brilliantly written!
Thank you so much again =)
Outstanding! Very well done!
Awww thanks Charles!
Excellent poem, well written 🙂
Thank you Jeanie =)
as beautiful as ever, keep it up.
Thanks so much Jingle!
its so sorrowful, hang in there, lots of love
hugs
luna
Thank you Luna *hugs back*
This is almost perfect, deep, powerful, and sophisticated. Nicely done.
Thank you so much
Depression is such an insidious beast too. I hope his meds kick in soon and that he can bring himself out of it all. I’ve been to those dark dismal depths myself and know it all seems such despair. Very vivid imagery.
I really hope so too, he’s honestly usually the most optimistic person I know
you describe it perfectly. i hope he gets better.
Thank you so much Gustavo and thank you for the like and subscription
I knew immediately that this detailed the beast ~ depression. You so vividly and lucidly illustrated it’s reality, it’s physicality. Brilliant writing, this.
Thank you so much Kim
I’m all teary eyed. I’ve been there. It’s a hard road.
It’s hard to give praise to your writing because of the sad subject matter, but by gahd, you are a terrific writer.
Awww thank you so much that means so much to me
It’s not easy to have someone with depression around you, it takes double the effort, to be strong for him and for yourself … All the best! Good that you can let the feelings into a poem!
Thank you so much, poetry is very therapeutic keeps me from bottling things up and exploding
your words have a certain power which is unbelievable..
Someone is Special
Thank you so much, what a lovely thing to say
living with depression is not easy, i know i am depressive person, but i isolate myself from ppl most times, just becos i know my mood is constantly up and down…its difficult i know…
It definitely is I am isolator too
Stands in places
You once stood
He wears your face
A telling, haunting work about the visage of depression as the disease creates an effigy. The entanglement that occurs when our intimate relationships crush us is so beautifully captured in reference to the projective test, the Rorschach. An apt metaphor. Well done.
Thank you so much Anna you are so kind and thank you for subscribing to my blog as well
Pretty dark and full of anxiety… Very descriptive, I like it!
Thank you =)
I don’t know what I can said that hasn’t already been said – very eloquently – in all the previous comments. I believe Churchill called it his black dog… I have been there and I still feel the lure of the abyss, much like the beautiful song of the sirens lured sailors aground in ancient Greece, but when I was at my worst, my very, very worst I couldn’t look at myself in a mirror… This brings back the feeling of how I must have looked, how I felt I looked back when everything was simply empty.
It is a beautiful piece and I hope that both you and your husband are getting the support you need. Grasp at every single straw, that’s the best piece of advice I can give, and don’t try to be too strong or you’ll dive in there with him.
Good luck!
Thank you so much I will keep your advice in mind. My husband hasn’t looked at himself for years I am afraid
Not sure why, but I found this poem very chilling. Love the first two lines and the phrase “bloody Rorschach impressions.”
Thank you very much, well Depression is very scary watching someone you love disappear and I did try to convey that
Touched and stunned by the vivid imagery of your poem. I always view depression as some kind of monster that just drags a person into a hole and empties their mind. It can be frightening, and I think it takes a lot to stand by a person who has this monster stalking him too.
Thank you very much Raven it is draining emotionally its been 10 years on and off mostly on, and now its worse
Excellent. Vividly open and personal all at once.
=) Thank you so much!
Could really feel the pressure which you’re undergoing….Woman is power herself and has extraordinary power to face almost anything ..The description of the poetry squeezes the mind..My prayers are with you…Thanks for share MLM..
Thank you so much for your encouragements *hugs*
the comparisons were just beautiful… it amazes me the way you have brought the situation to life. i could see the imagery in front of my eyes distinctly… awesome :):)
Thank you so much I am so glad =)
Very vivid visions expressed – I hope your husband finds his way out sometime soon – a friend of mine wasn’t successful in her search.
I really hope so too A.B..
Thank you for the like 8 likes is the most I have ever received on a poem you just helped me beat a record
Raw & evocative.
A powerful write indeed.
Best wishes to the both of you and thanks for taking time out to visit my blog.
Thank you so much Andy =)
wow- deep and raw – I was so drawn in as I was reading this – I hope for you that things turn around – beautiful piece
Thank you so much, I really hope so too.
Very well written.
lovely….
Thank you so much Dakshi
This is such a beautifully crafted poem in the realms of a condition all too common. It is rather draining when it comes and goes. Keep the poetry up. I know verse and words have helped me in the past.
Writing helps me too, helps to center me. Thank you so much for your lovely comment
Powerful words and imagery. I know depression well and what it is like to live with it. The hopelessness of your words are heart aching.
God bless you both and thank you for this read.
Melanie
http://cassiopeiarises.blogspot.com
This is my main blog. I use WordPress to post Undead Poetry
I am sorry to hear you are going through this as well and I wish you the best. Thank you so much for your kind words.
its a truly amazing piece of work..very well written
Thank you so much, your very kind
What an amazing, intimate portrait of this. So well written, I felt this thoroughly. My your writings help you through this as you help him. Blessings of peace to your both.
Thank you so much Ravienne, I am a strong believer in love, I want to grow old with my husband so I will keep fighting =)
depression is a scary thing (i hope you don’t mind me saying that). it’s a tough road but i pray that you both will pull through. i believe there will be light at the end of the tunnel.
just keep on writing, you are such an amazing writer. i enjoyed most, if not all, of your posts. take this one. it didn’t get too personal or self-pitying, but instead it is a work of such vivid imagery. for example, :
I see his residue
In the cracks on the floorboards
Like the painted face of a Geisha
Moon pale and beautiful
Brilliant spirit, crumbling
beautiful writing.
I don’t mind because it really is a scary thing. Thank you so much for your encouragement and kind comments =)
A poem that lingers. Really vivid imagery.
Thank you very dear
Beginning reading I thought you were dragging out what should have been a quick suicide, but then I began to understand. Horrible picture of the dangling, writhing suicidal hanging. Maybe we need to be reminded that it isn’t a quick way out. Then I saw your pain in watching the slow attempt, and how seeing creates the image in you. I’m sorry. Been there. Excellent depiction.
Thank you very much Ector
dark colors painted on canvas… awesome
Thank you so much for your kind words
dark colors painted on canvas… awesome….. depiction at par
A painting to remember! brilliant.
Thanks so much Leo!
Excellent. “He wears your face
Cleverly, like a tipped fedora
But he’s got the eyes of a dying fish” I love these lines and also “Together I keep us both pressed
Between the pages of my notebook
Bloody Rorschach impressions
We’ve become virtually indistiguishable”
I think I know this feeling…
Awww thanks Stephanie
I too hope your beautiful words of description do not take hold of your own heart. Many thoughts of fulfillness are sent your way.
Awww thank you for your kindness
Very powerful poetry, spoke very clearly to me, being close to several people with forms of depression. Beautifully melancholic, soul stilling, even in my chaotic heart. May fortune follow you and your husband.
The Lonely Recluse.
Thank you so much and best wishes to your loved ones as well =)
A deep and intense sharing of painful sadness in poetry. A profound and beautiful composition of darkness and how it tortures the soul, the mind and the body. May you both lift up to the Holy Spirit in its bright light and let its water cleanse you and heal you and renew you… God Bless.
Awww thank you very much Cindy
What a powerful poem… it simply draged me in…
Thank you so much Sam =)
this is so moving! i love it and can completely relate to it through family and friends who are suffering with depression xxx
Awww thank you so much Kate
This is the most vivid decsription of depression I’ve read, as your writing is rich with imagery. I can imagine the pain your husband must be going through, and can imagine the strength and courage that you display. Thank you for sharing.
Thank you so much that means a lot
This is so amazing that it hits hard, hang in there, love will find a way, wow, brilliant write, Thank you, much appreciated, WS
Thank you so much John for reading and for your lovely comments =)
Vivid imagery, draws the reader in. Wonderful language used, awesome line “He wears despair, In smudges of charcoal”, wow! My thoughts and prayers to you and your husband.
Thank you so much for your kind sentiments =)