Twitching, impatient
I am committed to agitation
Shifting from one foot to the other
I rise, do nothing, return
Dissatisfied
Unsettled inside
I despair
Press dread close at heart
As if I number among the haunted
I watch the shadows
Lingering pools of diversion
I anticipate the wraith
Receive only decimated shadow
=
Fetid, in my own stale air
I drift manically
Shrug, grimace, shout
Absurd
Caged by indecision
I contemplate sleep
Tossing, turning
Uncomfortable in my own skin
I contemplate food
I am not hungry
Starving for movement
For freedom
The great expanse
Of fields caught in the mercurial season of Spring
Unseasonably cold here
Wet, I strain at my desk
Trying to rearrange my thought patterns
To press ink to paper
Transfer the muse but he is equally distracted
I think he’s flirting with my imagination
Deliberately firing me up
For no reason in particular
=
I commit to rebellion
Wrestling with him
He’s so damn selfish
Flaunting my words wantonly
Directed only my whim
Cheap slut
All his thrills from exposure
From the brutal fornication of thought
He’s an existential tease
=
(Nothing brilliant but this is how I feel FRUSTRATED)
You did a good job in putting into words your frustration. I was like that one day that I blamed my muse for sucking as a muse. It’s not the muses fault, the words just haven’t surfaced yet.
I love teasing my muse, we have a very strange relationship 😛 Thank you for the like =)
Well said!
Thank you!