Half Empty (Audio)

neglect

Fragile and wound

Like a wicker basket

I harvest shame

By the earfuls

You on the other hand

Are half empty

*

I cannot even begin

To understand you

Beyond the confines

Of your former lovers

Who speak through you

As if a mannequin

Only they never bother

To alter their voices enough

To confirm their existence

*

Deluded by the grandeur

Of my heightened expectations

Infatuation flaunts

An unseemly neurosis

I assemble the flavors

Of your primary palate

In an effort to slide

Inside unchallenged

But sensing my intentions

You’ve removed

Your left ring finger

That nothing enduring

Should come to pass

*

Perhaps I will never know

Your hands in proximity

Absolving my loneliness

Or the sound of your voice

Shuddering under the ballast

Of genuine correspondence

Perhaps I will never know

Any love at all

Having none to spare myself

But there is always the dream

The fearsome but obliging dream

That draws the heart to the surface

Into an atmosphere far too dense

To ingest by virtuous means

*

I have felt

The suspicious grip

Of your mollifying detours

Yet the sickness pervades

My heart is a charcoal flame

Blackening all extremity

Unloved by you

Unheard by you

My words stumble

Regretfully

*

As this is a longer poem I found it rather challenging to read through without error!

http://vocaroo.com/i/s1NvyfbjlZw9

 

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25 responses to “Half Empty (Audio)

  1. RYN: No, there is no-one to share that with, but I shared unconditional love with my late partner. It was an amazing experience to have, even though I had to nurse her through to until she took her last breath, I wouldn’t change a thing. Loving and, being loved by her taught me so much about love and what it truly is and inner growth and, even though we are one tiny speck, of how important each and every one of us are in this universe. Through my walk through a painful grief and of learning to let go, I learned that we are all so much more (spiritually) than we may ever know we are. It took me a long time to come to terms and to understand that everything happens the way it happens for a reason. Now, those I have loved so deeply (Mother, parnter) I know they are still with me. In the stillness, I can feel them and I know they are with me, even when I can’t see them. I think we see so much more once we can learn to look beyond only the belief that the eyes see in front of them, to what lays beyond. Of course, this is just speaking from my own personal experience. We all accept things differently as our truths.
    Thank you for your comment.

    • *hugs* That’s beautiful what an amazing person you are. I agree unconditional love is amazing unless you are keeping yourself in a abusive relationship then you have to move on just for your health and really for the other person too.

  2. This prose is very sad. It’s really all about taking back your power and letting go. Accepting that the person is who they are, not the person you want them to be. It’s hard, I’ve felt this way for too long to. Hard to let go of pain, yet, has to be done before you can really move on with your own life.
    Heart-felt prose. Well written.

  3. Daydreamertoo said it well. Its sad and hard to do, but you have to accept people as they are and keep a hold on your power. Your words are amazing. They describe the feelings that lead to learning this hard truth very well.

  4. So heart breaking it leaves me breathless…
    Especially loved:
    “Perhaps I will never know

    Your hands in proximity

    Absolving my loneliness

    Or the sound of your voice

    Shuddering under the ballast

    Of genuine correspondence

    Perhaps I will never know

    Any love at all

    Having none to spare myself”

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